Epiphany

Yesterday, I had an epiphany - that's right, an epiphany! (Not in a religious sense).

I was driving on my way to Banham Zoo to volunteer in their Charity Shop like I do every Monday, however, this time my usual way was blocked with a road closure and I had to follow the diverson signs. My new route was so open, surrounded by fields and a mass of sky. I don't know what happened; something just clicked inside my head.

Work has been a nightmare recently, well half has and it's becoming more of a chore than it used to be and I seem to be tired all the time since taking on my second job. Very few of you will know that I clean at a pub in the mornings and then clean at a doctors sugery in the evenings. That's the day job. I realised that I need to change my mindset and get on with the things that I enjoy!

I hardly read books anymore. I don't visit museums or gallries. I haven't picked up my sketchbook and pen in a couple of weeks. I don't paint. I don't see people. Maybe that's why I have very, very few friends. I rarely leave the house for anything other than work everyday and that's not good. Instead I spend my time being a TV zombie and taking pictures of my boys (who are cats). Don't get me wrong, my boys are my world!

What I need to do is get creative every few days at least! Have a regular go at blogging like I used to. Plus, work on my online courses that I purchased last year. Maybe go out for fun once in a while and have a serious think about a different day job. I don't know why it's taken so long for me to see sense.

I know I'm going to really struggle getting on with all this; I'm the type of person who's all talk and little action. Any suggestions on ways to help change my mindset would be wonderful!

Wish me luck!

(I wrote this blog post the other day and forgot to post it, looks like I'm already off to a great start...).